Moments

Today I had my post baby follow up appointment.

Not fun. I can not believe that it has been 4 weeks already!

This last month has been a blur of nursing, rocking, trying to sleep and keeping Ryan from mauling Luke. Life definately changes when you add one and more kids to the mix. It can be overwhleming. But, as I was getting on the evelator at the doctor's office, I noticed a woman who was older - her kids are all grown, I am sure.

Then it hit me - this doesn't last forever. Before I know it, my kids will be grown, too.

I want to savor every minute of this time I have with them.

After that, I gave little crying Luke a kiss on the head and felt so much gratitude for the now - in all it's craziness.

Luke

Sweet, peaceful and calm. That is our little Lukie -boy.

Brothers

Baby Ryan

Baby Luke

Because Ryan looks so different from Brett or me, I was sure all of our children would look really different from eachother. But, I think these two will look related, what do you think? Luke has a smaller head - like, a lot smaller. Ryan's was off the chart and Luke's is in the 25th percentile. But, it is looking like we may have 2 blue eyed boys! How crazy is that.

I love seeing my two boys together.

A Family of Four

8 days old
I love my boys

I was so excited that I just pushed a baby out!!

Before Luke was born, I was so nervous how I was going to feel about haveing 2 kids. I did not understand at all how I could love another human being as much as I loved Ry. But, just as everyone said, I could not imagine Luke not being here. It just feels right that he is a part of our family. We are just in love with the little guy.

Here is how he got here...

Saturday night, June 26th, I left to go to the adult session of Stake Conference. At this point I was a day over due and I was pretty convinced that my body did not know how to go into labor and that I would have a c-sectino that coming tuesday. I came home and sat on the bed to tell Brett about the meeting and then I felt something wet. " Hang on...." I said to Brett. I ran to the bathroom to check what was going on... my water had broken! I was so excited and both of us were running around like crazy. We were not expecting this at all. So we packed my bag (I really didn't think I had to be ready) and put Ry into the car and dropped him off at my parents house. The doctors and mid-wives were very helpful and supportive. At 8:00 the next morning - I still wasn't convinced this was giong to happen "naturally"( with an epidural - love those). But the midwife came and checked me and said - just another hour or so! I almost started crying! I was so excited. My mom made it just in time. She and Brett were such a great support team. I pushed for 3o minutes and out Luke came. What an amazing experience. I feel so blessed that things worked out that way! It is such a miracle to bring a life into this world - no matter how it happens.